http://pegritzcom.disqus.com/enTue, 03 Jan 2006 18:30:48 -0000http://www.pegritz.com/2006/01/01/a-new-year-a-new-pegritzcom/#comment-1821278<p>That is beautiful. You remind me of my own former beloveds. Though once our distance was the result of their unreliability, now things have changed. I turn my back on them coldly, even when they travel from afar to visit me. I just can't be seen with certain characters anymore. My colleagues just wouldn't understand, and I could lose everything if I lose my respectability in their eyes. Am I shallow to let my fear of scandal come between me and my old paramours of ill-repute? I feel guilt at my bourgiouse pretense, when beneath the sham is concealed an unrepentant boheme. Will I ever have the courage to openly flout the rules and risk the scarlet brand? Or am I really so slaved to convention that I would rather own the sin of the hypocrite than that of the wanton?</p><p>These are the thoughts I mull in the night, which your memoire of Jose brings fresh to my mind. I am glad for you, for how you handled your parting. You may have distanced yourselves, but you ended well. Like men.</p>nixicatTue, 03 Jan 2006 18:30:48 -0000